martial arts havent taught me anything about mentaly dealing with bullies. they only taught me to fight sad to say. i get made fun of alot. and i mean alot. some asshole is turning my friends against me and i feel like punching his jaw in his head. i dont care what martial arts teach. i just want to literally kill him and people like that who tease me. anyways, if i fought him , he would be a big pussy and get all of his backup after me. he has alot of friends who are really strong and have connections to gangs. people are like that. especially the asians at my old school and present school. they think there are all tough(and they really are strong) and when they loose a fight or get into confrontations, it all turns to gang fights and multiple confrontations. its only the opposite of that when there is beef between the two or its an organized fight. in grade 7 i had a friend for about 3 months then he started teasing me really badly to be popular. we had some confrontations. mostly ones where i had ended up using a simple throw to end it. but i never saw him untill this year. when i first saw him in math class the first day he said "thats the guy who thinks he can beat me with his kung fu skills" lol. after that day, we were cool and dont have beef anymore. sometimes here and there we do occasional friendly slaps and stuff like that. sometimes i block it and sometimes i miss and just laugh. female bullies are pretty bad too. one time i actually got the guts to call one a bitch. she stopped teasing after a while then moved. if that hurt her, i am glad it did. anyways i hate alot of things about my life. i usually never tell the whole truth cuz it would be embarrasing and people would think im some low life who has little friends(which sometimes i think is true). this world fucking sucks. i hate it. ill be glad when i die. im not ready to just yet unless it gets really bad.
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