hello,
spudman300. you are spending too much time worrying about things you need not focus on.
if you are picking fights, or seeking them, shame on you. you are wrong.
if you are not, just pay it no mind.
the fear is normal. anyone who tells you it will go away at some point doesn't know what they are talking about. at best, you can be conditioned to function is spite of it. without it? not likely.
as far as the dreamstuff (slow motion and such). not going to get into a protracted explaination, but dreams stem from the irrational brain. not the logical brain. obviously, you dream about things you know (at least partially). however, the outcomes are often unexpected.
punching in slow motion or landing with no force might be manifestations of several things.
you have never punched anyone in a real fight, so your mind doesn't "know what that punch feels like".
your nature does not support harming others.
you are experiencing failure or lack of fulfillment in other aspect(s) of your life (you might not be consciously aware) and your mind is demonstrating failure through imagery you are familiar with.
very broad stuff here. but the essential point is this.
just train, you will fight if you must. don't seek it or push it. if you don't enjoy what you are doing, or it is unfulfilling, seek other pastimes.
thanks.
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