DickHardman

today i was rolling with a higher ranked guy who was going rough and doing things that were somewhat unnecessary inmop, like forcing lapel chokes that were over my face and nowhere near my neck with 100% force for long periods of time. i got really angry. it really lit a fire under me. i ended up brutalizing this dude. i think i went too far. i feel kinda bad about it. i ended up bench pressing him off me with pure strength and then pinned his head and face to the floor with my shoulder as hard as i could till he was tired out, and then i put his face in an arm triangle and squeezed till he went limp from his face being crushed, and then i armbarred him hard and i was so angry i didnt hear him yelling for me to stop. i didnt feel a tap so i didnt stop. i feel kinda bad. am i the bad guy here?? this went on for a while before i armbarred him, i kept his face pinned to the floor with my shoulder and let him flap around helplessly till there wasnt an ounce of energy left in him. it was pretty bad. there a few guys on the side watching and they looked kinda shocked. i kinda feel like a bully. this dude was a higher rank, though im in better shape, and he was going as hard as possibly on me. i for sure lost control of my actions. what would you guys have done?? i did apologize to the guy for his arm. i would have stopped immediately had i heard him or felt the tap. dude, he wasnt ok afterward. he not only looked beat up, he look pretty shaken mentally. he jammed right afterwards and didnt say anything to anyone.