when i am put in that situation when i just go bang* all sorts of fucked up uncontrollable shit happens. my eyes glaze over my face goes red and i actually get tunnel vision.all of a sudden thirty men with guns wouldnt stop me and im a machine tredging through anything infront of me with one word in mind KILL! then when i have "won" people will be screaming telling me to stop etc and i'll look and see i have dissabled the threat.then all of a sudden i calm and im starving so the very next thing i do is go eat lol. i have been pretty upset when ive goten arrested and wind up with the shit they give ya.
this is all a load of chemical reactions inside me. i just see it as the way im piped up. are you guys saying its possible to switch in to this gear all of a sudden?
with training as i grew up i came to a point where me and everyone thaught i had got a controll of my temper but that wasnt so! what i had done is pushed back the point at which i did flip. this is a terrible thing. this caused me to be a fanny and take alot more flack than i should. its meant that for a couple years i felt insecure and weak and always wondered what happened to the old me. for that couple years i went iwthout fighting ya see and then i got in a scrape that i couldnt run away from bang* here the old me again. i beat **** out the twat and from then on i where buzzing about having that extra gear to shift in to. i knew it where still in me to flip like that and since have tried to find a way of doing it on demand. i personally dont think this is possible now. but would be an awesome thing. also when i have flipped the little i know. ie how to land a punch i have done naturally. i can still use my legs to walk when i turn likethis so if i trained myself propperly then do you realy think it would all go out the window??
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