Used to have a big temper problem - not anymore. Goes away with time and training I think. If you know you could cave someone's face in with one punch, you get a little hesitant to even joke around.
Try that full contact sparring on for size. Give you a chance to see first hand what damage you're capable of doing to someone with pads who knows what they are doing, then think about your "friend"...
Try just letting go sometimes. You didn't really need that chair, you don't really need face - and face and pride do not need to be so connected. Pride is internal, face is external. You need to weigh them out - see what's worth more to you. Good luck.
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