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jg - I think you did a good job...cut yourself some slack, I mean only 3 months you took a big risk and now you know how to train differently. Honestly, from a sports perspective don't worry about the person experience or weight (it is with in your weight class right?). Heavyweights can give up 50lbs and noone thinks twice about it (generally speaking)

I wrestled a few heavyweights when I was in H.S., gave up alittle over 30 lbs and won - If I lost I would not think about the weight (or how unfair it was for my coach to make me drink gallons of water to meet the 2 weight class limit). My piont is that a win is a win and a loss is a loss, and focus on the things that went wrong to improve (whether you win or loose). Just learn from the loss, it is quite possible that you may have been technically better than the other guy and just took your self out of the match.

Againg, be proud of youself to have the guts to compete in any case.

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