I don't know what is sadder than an older, latent homosexual (i.e. self hating) internet dwelling loser. Maybe one day you will be a parapeligic and have no other options for sport, instead of relying on...well...this for kicks. My friendly advice to you is to come out of the closet, get in shape, get the **** off the computer, and try to meet other ugly, lonely, and unhappy men...all of which I'm sure will probably be too good for you. You probably couldn't get play in prison with liquid soap.