EmptyneSs

when i go to my muy thai/boxing classes, the more i get hurt the better i like it. i like to see the bruises on my legs the next day. when i get hit in the face, it hurts alot, but i want more. in judo when i would get slammed i didnt like it, but after it happened i wanted more. i like getting hit. i like getting hurt. i like bleeding. at the moment it happens it sux, but afterwards i wish it happened more. i dont mind getting fucked up. for a moment i was afriad of getting hurt. now i desire it. mabye it has to do with the fact that i have nothing else going for me. mabye the pain fills the empty void inside me?? i go to my muay thai classes and get pounded and i always want more. the bruise is never big enough, or there is never enough of them. when i get hit in the nose and bleed, it never bleeds enough, and it never hurts enough. the bruises and scrapes are always a physical reminder to me of how much i want to train. sometimes i hate the fact taht some people dont even realise what i go through when i train,and how much it means to me and they dismiss it as just some stupid shit i do. i hate it when ive told people that muay thai is waht i do, yet they always refer to it as karate. i always tell my partner to not hold back.sometimes i want my partner to obliterate me.i always tell my partner to not take it easy on me. to not hold back. i dont know were this comes from but ive been thinking about it alot. is anyone else like this?or am i just crazy?

eXcessiveForce

You have the makings of a mental illness. I would consider getting into therapy.

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dkm

emptyness, just tell them to bring a baseball bat and put you in the surgery room, if you like pain so much.

Tom Yum

Uhh....

I hope you and your 'partner' wears protection.

Good Luck.

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It’s called masochistism.

Actually if I come home from a training session without a fat lip or without bruises on my legs or other places I am disappointed too. I feel like I didn’t get much of a workout.

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EmptyneSs

yes this is what im talking about. i dont want my workout to be toned down or sugar coated. i want it to be as tough as possible. the more bruises and more hits i take the better.


i guess it is a form of masochism. i guess its not so bad though, cause all it really translates to is i just want to train harder and harder.



oh and do any of u know people who always refer to what u do as karate, no matter how many times u have told them its muay thai, or a different style that is in no way shape or form karate? that pisses me off.

Uber_Tap

I understand what you mean about the karate thing. I trained in a style of karate that is an off-shoot of Isshin-Ryu. Our school free-sparred, grappling the whole deal. In formal classes, we sparred at maybe 75%. After formal class there were about six of us that would stay and beat the living mortal hell out of each other, just swinging for the fences. I would come home with my ribs hurting like hell, lips bleeding, hands swollen, and shins/thighs bruised all up. When someone heard the word Karate I could see the only thing going through there mind was Daniel-Son and the Karate kid. I'm sitting there like dude, I'm freakin bleeding for this, not waxing on or waxing off anything(OK, maybe a few times when I was a kid). Its hard to defend the few legitimate schools of karate that are out there, so I can imagine how pissed you would get if your style isn't even associated with karate and you get that crap.

Tom Yum

Good that you have clearly identified goals.

Your ability to work hard probably pours into other areas of your life; likewise with your ability to take a punch and deliver one.

I work for a guy who has been heavily involved in karate for sometime. The man knows how to build teams, communicate effectively and is very comfortable & genuine with people - perhaps its his karate training, his personality or both.

Getting hit is an instinctive fear, like public speaking. The more you mix it up and take risks by facing your fears, the faster that fear dissolves. It likely boils down to personality type; some people live their whole lives driven by fears, whereas others like yourself develop courage.

Wear your protective gear & good luck.

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EmptyneSs

u know, u are right. getting over the fear of getting hit and getting hurt has in fact helped me in other areas of my life. i used to be hesistant, and doubtful all the time.now i dont have problems taking risks like i used to.i too was a person who's life was driven by fear and doubt, but that is no longer the case. now im much more decisive and confidant and dont worry much about other things that bothered me before. ive always been a shy person, but now im pretty confortable with people. i mean, if i can get over being afriad of someone bigger than me trying to pound me, regular interaction with people is nothing.

also, i always wear protective gear. i care more about my partners well being than my own. alot of times i dont have the heart to pound on someone who is less skilled than me, even though i could. my instructor tells me to go harder on people, cause if i keep taking it easy on them i am not helping them, and i am holding myself back as well.

squidd

without a doubt, your training style will make you more skilled and tougher than someone who does not have a stomach for your quality of training. and that comment extends beyond martial arts and even to your personal life.

a word of caution, though, my friend. not all people who take up martial arts share the same goals. that is, some people are not motivated and in fact turned off by use of unnecessary force during training. i understand the tenet that if you do not force in practice, do not expect to be able to execute with force in a real life situation. but, having said that, the fact still remains that not all people relish pain the same way that you do. so do be careful my friend that you may ecourage more people to embrace, instead of shun martial arts.

peace!

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gabbah

This is a VERY good point.
Fighting develops you as a person.. I've never looked at it that way before.

sherwinc

how about EMPTY HANDED DEFENSE against INTRUDER ARMED WITH A KNIFE only????????

it is necessary to be hitted with a knife plenty cause this is a true self defense????????

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sslinky

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I think people "enjoy" getting hit, not because they are masochistic, but because (assuming the injury isn't serious) they know that all the bumps and bruises are ultimately toughening them up.
Why are you bothered that people call your muay thai training karate? Because you think that's not tough enough? Ever noticed how the really tough people don't need to go around telling people how hard they are and how often they train and how many bruises they've got? They know. And that's all they need to know.
One other thing, you mentioned that getting smashed to pieces fills the empty void inside of you (very deep btw!) - perhaps you should try to fill your void by training hard on your technique/skill/fitness and concentrating on becoming a good fighter instead of a punch bag?

sherwinc

now i finally know the true reasons why more fighters need to be hitted so that to tough their skin.......

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