This was posted on another forum and I wanted everyone here to know about Underdog's plight:
"My father too, is dying. He undergone tracheotomy for an acute
pulmunar disease just two days ago, after been in surgery for a
disease in the bladder. Right now he's in acute pain, he can not
even talk to us because air cannot reach his vocal chords. I dunno
what to do, it's like moving underwater, it's like this is happening to
someone else, right now I'm moving and living like some sort of
robot, something deep inside of me has broken beyond repair.
I know that this will sound horrible, but sometimes I pray that he
stop living, I know him too well, and even if he can not talk me he
whispered "take me away from this".
My mother is broken in half, but, nonetheless, we own a coffee
shop, so we MUST smile to customer.
To add insult to injury, my ex girlfriend, the one that I was ready to
marry, and that rejected me sendin me in acute depression, work in
the very same hospital where my father is. I see her everyday, and
that hurt.
Many times during the day I blank out, and many time I find my
glock, my stupid glock pointed at my temple. I dunno what horrible
things I did in my previous lifes to deserve this, but my life was pure
pain at least from 15 years. I know that I'm not destined to endure
this world for long, but deep inside I must find at least the strength
to sold our shop in order to guarantee a decent living for my mother
and my sister."
Underdog: I feel your pain since I am in your shoes too. My Dad is slowly dying also and I've had a rough road. We both walk the same path. Circumstances are different but the pain is the same. There are days that I am very strong and others where I don't want to get out of bed. Please stay tough for your father, mother and family. That is what keeps me going. If the situation were reverse, I know that my Dad would be strong for me and not give up.
Please stay in touch.
"My father too, is dying. He undergone tracheotomy for an acute
pulmunar disease just two days ago, after been in surgery for a
disease in the bladder. Right now he's in acute pain, he can not
even talk to us because air cannot reach his vocal chords. I dunno
what to do, it's like moving underwater, it's like this is happening to
someone else, right now I'm moving and living like some sort of
robot, something deep inside of me has broken beyond repair.
I know that this will sound horrible, but sometimes I pray that he
stop living, I know him too well, and even if he can not talk me he
whispered "take me away from this".
My mother is broken in half, but, nonetheless, we own a coffee
shop, so we MUST smile to customer.
To add insult to injury, my ex girlfriend, the one that I was ready to
marry, and that rejected me sendin me in acute depression, work in
the very same hospital where my father is. I see her everyday, and
that hurt.
Many times during the day I blank out, and many time I find my
glock, my stupid glock pointed at my temple. I dunno what horrible
things I did in my previous lifes to deserve this, but my life was pure
pain at least from 15 years. I know that I'm not destined to endure
this world for long, but deep inside I must find at least the strength
to sold our shop in order to guarantee a decent living for my mother
and my sister."
Underdog: I feel your pain since I am in your shoes too. My Dad is slowly dying also and I've had a rough road. We both walk the same path. Circumstances are different but the pain is the same. There are days that I am very strong and others where I don't want to get out of bed. Please stay tough for your father, mother and family. That is what keeps me going. If the situation were reverse, I know that my Dad would be strong for me and not give up.
Please stay in touch.
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