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Proving Yourself By Taekwondo_gal06 - Fri, 15 Jun 2007 10:45:16 GMT
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Okay, I'm the one who had the psychotic dude try to bash me up. Well, Grading was tonight and I feel I have done something for myself.
There wasn't many people grading, yet a lot of spectators, I was very nervous. The master decided to have my level grade for the whole night (3 hrs, at 4th kup) we did the criteria for every level, from white to ours and at full power. We sparred, three step, one step, patterns combos...
A few times I thought I would faint, but I just sort of willed my way through (I hate showing weakness, and I was grading with all men at my level who always are condescending because I am female.) My the end of the night, on my last legs and puffing, I sparred the guy who beat up on me.
And I won, it was so very thrilling. I sparred one after another and I actually stood on my own. I noticed at the end combos the boys were slow and losing technique, but I guess I wanted it more than them and pushed myself. By the end though, when he finally bowed us out I was ready to collapse. My vision went gray briefly and I was dizzy but.... I was exhilarated.
I guess i was out to prove to myself I can do it just as well, even better, than those guys who look down on me and my sex. I also noticed something, the girls, not all but a few, went hard, had better technique and more focus. Martial arts is considered a man's domain, and I think that the women who venture in there despite that and stick with it want it more, have determination. Maybe they had to show them too that a girl can do anything a guy can, sometimes better.
I'm tired, buzzing, my feet are covered in blood blisters; but you know what? I feel like a part of me has fallen into place.
But I just wanted to say, all it takes is perseverance and indomitable spirit no matter who you are.
Have you ever had to demand respect? If so how? I just want to share my journey and listen to those who will share theirs.
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Okay, I'm the one who had the psychotic dude try to bash me up. Well, Grading was tonight and I feel I have done something for myself.
There wasn't many people grading, yet a lot of spectators, I was very nervous. The master decided to have my level grade for the whole night (3 hrs, at 4th kup) we did the criteria for every level, from white to ours and at full power. We sparred, three step, one step, patterns combos...
A few times I thought I would faint, but I just sort of willed my way through (I hate showing weakness, and I was grading with all men at my level who always are condescending because I am female.) My the end of the night, on my last legs and puffing, I sparred the guy who beat up on me.
And I won, it was so very thrilling. I sparred one after another and I actually stood on my own. I noticed at the end combos the boys were slow and losing technique, but I guess I wanted it more than them and pushed myself. By the end though, when he finally bowed us out I was ready to collapse. My vision went gray briefly and I was dizzy but.... I was exhilarated.
I guess i was out to prove to myself I can do it just as well, even better, than those guys who look down on me and my sex. I also noticed something, the girls, not all but a few, went hard, had better technique and more focus. Martial arts is considered a man's domain, and I think that the women who venture in there despite that and stick with it want it more, have determination. Maybe they had to show them too that a girl can do anything a guy can, sometimes better.
I'm tired, buzzing, my feet are covered in blood blisters; but you know what? I feel like a part of me has fallen into place.
But I just wanted to say, all it takes is perseverance and indomitable spirit no matter who you are.
Have you ever had to demand respect? If so how? I just want to share my journey and listen to those who will share theirs.
Read More ... or click reply below.
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