WTF>???JESUS!

[Garland]

So...I broke up with my girlfriend of 6 months, and I thought that we'd still be friends, she was being civil...I really love her, and care about her, but shit's been going south for along time now. (her bitching me out because I can't spend enough time with her...because I work and go to school full time. Or because I don't like her getting high. Or because she treats me like shit.)

She calls me up tonight, 2:00 AM. "Garland, if I come over will you come outside and have a smoke with me?"
"Ok" Dur...I'm a dumbass.

So I go out to her car, and she reeks of alchohol. She tries to get on me, I tell her I love her, and dearly want to be her friend, but I cannot be her boyfriend anymore. She's like "Whatever, just touch me.." I give her a kiss...she starts reaching down my pants...
(how fucking stupid am I, you ask, pretty goddamned dumb.)

She proceeds to tell me that she's sooooo fucked up and that she's been drinking all night and snorting pills with her friends.
I tell her that I'm worried about her, and I start crying.
She calms me down a bit, and tells me she'll be fine. I'm worried about her, and I don't want her to do this shit, especially when she's upset...because of me, I feel soooo fucking guilty. (I have an uncle who's ex killed herself after he came out of the closet, so I start worrying very quick)

She starts taking a nap in the backseat of her car, I get out and I call her parents. Her mom picks up, I tell her that her daughter is really drunk, we broke up recently, and that I'm worried about her state of mind and about her driving home in this inebriated state. (I keep coming back to check on her to make sure she's still breathing, and she's out like a light.)

Her mom's en-route to my house. I tell her not to call because her daughter might just take off...and that I'd promised her I wouldn't call her parents.
so, what does she do?

My ex flips out, tells her that she's on the freeway, on the way home...starts cursing me, screaming and ripping at me (I had stashed her keys in my pocket at this point)

I turn to make it harder for her to get the keys and she slaps me in my face repeatedly, screaming at the top of her lungs the whole time, tears a chunk out of my arm and my back and takes her keys...and drives off in a huff.

I call her house because I lost the dad's cell phone number that the mom has...and tell her dad that she's on her way home.

My ex calls me from a payphone (I think)...and tells me again how fucking stupid I am, etc etc....erase her number from my phone, the works...never want to fucking see you again...the whole drill

and I'm still worried about whether or not she's going to get home O.K.

This feels like dejavou...why?
because she pulled this same shit on mushrooms one night...and we were still going out.


I love this girl still...but she's psycho. (I must have low self esteem or something)
What the hell??
I can't stop worrying about her either.
Do you guys think she's going to be okay?

[Garland]

I just took some pictures of where she scratched me up.
In case this shit gets twisted.
Luckily I still live with my parents, and woke my mom up before I called my ex's parents.

[EmptyneSs]

u cant help someone unless they want to help themselves. i know u care, but theres really not much u can do. either cut off contact with her and try to move on, or u can just keep dealing with all that shit and drive urself crazy. i learned this the hard way. i had a gf who was very self destructive, did drugs, alcohalic, cut herself, threw up....man she had it all. i wasnt even a bf anymore, i was a babysitter. i was always trying to look out for her and make sure she wasnt doing something horrible. **** all that, people like us have enough problems of our own, we dont need to deal with someone elses. there are plenty of girls who have less problems(all chicks are nutty to some extent) that u can be with. and if that doesnt make u feel any better then be like me friend, and take comfort in the fact that one day we will all die and none of this will have mattered anyway.

"..emptiness is eternal.....i am not..."

[Garland]

she called me back...wants to give "us" a sceond try...all I can do is fucking cry.

she tells me all she wants to do is hold me, when all I know is that she wants to roll me.

she gets upset because she can't get her way
In the end I'll have to pay

and that's all I have to say
maybe I'll try for love again this may

but I know it'll end to my dismay
on another rainy day

and when the tears come welling up in my eyes
I won't be too suprised

because all I know is hurt
and the rest remains inert.


Point of fact-let them get their hooks in, and they'll take part of you with them when they go.
two bottles of chardoney and my mind begins to slow.

Maybe I'll check myself into to an asylum for my penance
and let the other wacko's know my sentence

I'm crazy in love, which makes me numb
and that may be the fate to which I succumb.


(I'm drunk as shit...but I might as well write, eh?)

[Garland]

how bout haiku?

sad girl with drunk eyes
I tell her I feel her pain
she remains the same
//////////////////////////
I love her more now
she resents our common ground
now I must stay sound.

[SamuraiGuy]

"Point of fact-let them get their hooks in,"

NEVER LET THEM GET THEIR HOOKS IN!!!!

Sorry, martial arts forum I couldnt resist.

Im gonna have to go with... first.. prolly stop drinking until youve dealt with this... second of all, I would just phone her, when shes not high/drunk... (if thats possible, no offense).. and tell her you dont want to see her cause of all the crap shes done.. and than stick with it.... let her parents know whats going on with her, and thats all you can do for her. Its actaully the best thing you can do for her... your trying to "help" her, is probably only just enabling her to continue with this type of shit....

[Blue Wave Gym]

oh here we go

I don't have enough crazy shit in my head/ people to worry about now I gotta worry about Garlands girlfriend doing something to herself whic I think is a possibitity from what I've heard.Life was so much easier when I was a total jerk oh well. Ok here's you> working full time and going to school, trying to get ahead and do right, here's her> drinking, drugging having episodes, Question >does your girlfriend work or go to school or does all she do is ill shit,it sound like you are on 2 different tracks, it sounds like she has way too much free time on her hands in which to create all this drama,ask yourself one question not do you love her but are you still in love with her cause if it was me and I was in love with her I'd get her to a F******* treatment center and a shrink asap.Garland she's a train wreck just waiting to happen so really think about if you want to beat feet outa dodge or try to make things work. any way I'l say a prayer for her my prayer list is up to like 5 people now, so many problems in the world wtf????.

[npk9]

I've been there - done that w/my head up my a$$ not knowing any better. My advise - leave now before real damages is done - not only because dragging you down and screaming but its only going to get worst. You've done what you can. Now the balls in her court. I hate girls like that

[Garland]

She's been trying to smooth things out.
I'm sticking to the just friends thing...if I stray, I might as well brain myself with a tap hammer for being stupid.

Went and hung out with her last night with a whole bunch of mutual friends at a party, she seems to be cool, I think the crowd setting helps to percipitate the fact that we can hang out sometimes, even though we ain't going out.

Interesting side story though...she has warrants, and has a tail light out, so on the way back from the party, when got pulled over twice in ten minutes. No shit, welcome to Salt Lake Shitty.

[npk9]

Just watch yourself - sometimes girls have a way trying to bring you down with them when sh!t hits that fan!

[Garland]

Just watch yourself - sometimes girls have a way trying to bring you down with them when sh!t hits that fan!

I know man. But sometimes when you're the one invloved, it's hard to stand back and check shit from the larger perspective. I just need to get my head on straight anyways, so as this shit doesn't happen again.

[SamuraiGuy]

lol yeah evaluate and continue down the just friends path.. or the no contact path at all...


and if she does it again... apply your "signature" to her....