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[matbla]

because people put other people down and unfair way

[DickHardman]

How many times do we need to look at pictures of a jacket I saw in Target back in 1986?

lol....its never gonna end....

did you get my pm with those links mr arieson??

[matbla]

i sorry it is not a wal-mart jacket it is what the players use on the baseball field
sorry for posting here you make fun of me for no reason at all.. did i make fun of you somethimg when you push me to far i did not want to hurt any ones feeling here you all great and you sometime make fun of my becasue i am learning problem i have,, and handicaps should not be make fun of there trying to make friend and i am matbla form the begining i am not anyone elase but matbla from near lake geroge , new york from matt blake (matbla)
sorry for post here i did not want a war over my good topics if you have just answered people topic in a good way maybe they would come up with a new and good topic and if you alway reply with what ever or it is sh-- and stuff like that then the person might get made and make fun of you ,,did you ever think of that from matt blake matbla

[matbla]

i am on this board and karate korner and i do not post on any other board but those any more i do not like the use of drug are bad and i have for about the past 3 month not been to those site i deleted them from my favorite list and i only keep these in my favirite list this board here and karate korner only and stop tell people i been to those site i hate them i like this site if there were no wars over me and just get along with what ever the topic so if you do not like my topic then do not read them and please shut up about me and my learnig problem and hurting people with learning problema and disabiltes and handicaps ,,let me tell you what if you had one of these and they alway make fun of you ???!!!!from matt blake

[matbla]

not funny it you that need to getalone we tryed putting up wioth youand now you not funny and shit for make fun of learn problems and disabiltys and handicaps can we stop your war you talking about it is people like you that make the board bad you do not like a topic do not read it and do not reply if you donot like the topic like this i know you will reply again to this i know you will even if you do not like the topic so you seem to ruin people topic

[matbla]

thank you i lay back on my topic o.k from matt blake

[Garland]

...I have no idea what the ungodlyfuck happened to sidetrack this shit...

but...yeah, people should join in...unless they're just a bunch of voyuer pervs that like to see us argue amongst themselves.

Do you like to watch? Huh? you like it? Don't you baby...


how bout now?

Dick...post that video you sent me...these people need a reality check to understand just who they're dealing with!

...we need a smiley with a jason mask.

[matbla]

i do not know eathier i thought it was a good topic

[Garland]

Matt...please...leave me out of anything you say.
I hate to be crass...but I have to be completely candid and honest...you make me uncomfortable and ever since you started this little crusade to keep everyone else civil...I haven't liked you.

Nobody has the RIGHT not to be offended, Matt. I understand that some people may say some things that upset you...be upset. Bitch and moan. But don't expect people to always bail you out and protect you. Life is PAIN, Matt. Life sucks, it's difficult, it's unfair, people have hidden agendas, and generally, even though the world may not be out to get you, time is.

There are givens that come with being human, Matt. People suffer, mistreat each other, are perpetually alone (anything else is illusory), and then simply cease to be as if they were never born.

Life sucks, Matt. I come to this forum to talk over things that I love (martial arts, combatives, self defense and combat sports) in a way to distract me from how shitty life is, or facing those big assed existential questions that HAUNT my mind daily...or whatever little worries or painful moments I encounter as part of my everyday existence. I crack jokes, like many others here, as a way of releiving some strain and stress...and also as a way to build fraternity. Men joke with each other, and all jokes- ALL jokes are made at the expense of others. I am occassionally the butt of jokes here, I realize they're usually not serious, and even if they were...who are these people across the wire from me? Do you think I should give a flying **** what you, or dick, or the others think of me? No! Hell No! I respect many of our members, and I'd like them to think kindly or highly of me in some respects...but have I really done anything deserving of their respect...not really.

In short...
Matt...listen...I come to this forum because life sucks. I entertain and occupy myself occassionally with this forum to distract myself from the suckiness of life. I don't take things seriously. If I felt people were assholes here...I'd leave. Why waste my time with it? Everyone here, with very few exceptions, are good sports and cool cats.

I feel that YOU have recently assumed a position of self righteousness and tried your hardest to tell others what to do. I understand you have certain delays that make it difficult for you, and that this forum hasn't always believed your delays were real (some still don't), but that doesn't give you any extra rights on the forum. It shouldn't. May the ADA strike me with lightening if my saying that is wrong. I wish you well Matt. But in all seriousness...Your behavior lately has really upset me. If you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen, so they say. I for one, will NOT walk on eggshells for you. I will NOT pick on you or make light of your disabilities, but YOU should not involve yourself with my shit, or try and tell ME what to do. Ok?

Be cool Matt. Stop playing a moderator and leave people be. If people talk shit on YOU then report them, if you want to. That's not my business...
but I for one, will simply choose to ignore you to the best of my ability because of your recent actions...until you learn to play with others without needing to cry to authority figures.

[matbla]

i sorry i did not use your name ever so what's up

[Guest]

Garland,

Whats up fella? Why so down on life? Is this your usual outlook or are things getting you down? Genuinely interested, but its cool if you don't want to share.

Mike

[Tom Yum]

Garland's ok.

Growing pains. He'll be fine

[Garland]

Garland,

Whats up fella? Why so down on life? Is this your usual outlook or are things getting you down? Genuinely interested, but its cool if you don't want to share.

Mike

I'm not a pessimist...I'm a realist. I know that sounds trite and contrived...but I am simply all too aware of the fact that life has no meaning aside from what we subjectively ascribe to it, that we are perpetually struggling with the balance between freedom and responsibility, that we are born alone, die alone, and no matter how well we get in with othrs, are ultimately alone in our experience with the world, and finally...that it's not a matter of the glass being half empty or half full...it's that I won't be along to always make the distinction. That it's a moot point, the glass and myself won't exist forever.

Basically, one day it will be as if I never existed...and eventually it will be as if nothing were ever extant.


But...really...I'm quite a happy fellow.
I can't change the nature of existence...or human nature...I realize the banality of it all and the cruel/sad/awkward/futile/fruitless/painful/meloncholie/fleeting/transcient/wonderful/beautiful/etc motions I undergo to seem less mortality salient.

I'm having a bit of a quarter life crisis, I guess. I see all the things I want, enjoy, love...precious moments that slip through my fingers that I want to cling to in a death grasp...falling through the holes in my hands. But...hey...it is what it is. You have to build yourself up to be beautifully tragic breaking down...so I aim to better myself. In many ways I yearn for that type of tragic heroicism, but I know better...it's just another coping mechanism to deal with death anxiety.

I guess I have the luxury of too much time to sit and ponder things. What makes it all worth the effort are my close mates (despite their problems), my new girlie (even if I'm sharing), my familia (as flawed as they may be), and a handful of other things I enjoy...including the new Matties Perch...which is pretty damn tastey. I have a growing affinity for Aussie wines. I've had a sweet tooth since I cut down (heavily) smoking.

[Tom Yum]

Deep.

When I was 6 years old, we were in the tail-end of the Cold War with the USSR. I remember our principal coming into our class to talk to us about the possbility of nuclear war and having him show us how to get under our desks in case of some kind of a bomb attack. Later that year, the movie "The Day After" came out - portraying a nuclear strike in a big city and the aftermath. I think that was the first time, at age 6, that I realized my own mortality and how quick I could be changed into dust.

The second time, was when I was in highschool when angry teens took out their frustrations on students with drive-by shootings. Two shootings took place one year at my school - both targets were random, well-liked students. I got jumped and protected a friend at the same time.

I'm facing the possbility of it again in the line of work I'm going to be doing. I don't think too much about my place in the world or how quickly it could end - maybe I'm an optimist?

All I know is that I've always gotten my point across when it mattered. I've experienced true love and have been loved back. I've dealt with some incredibly difficult, immature, complicated people as well as being blessed with kind, generous, self-sacrificing and energetic ones. I've fought hard battles, lost a few to come back and win some important ones. I've taken some pretty big risks and have always faced the armchair QB's - so I've learned to seek mentors whom are doing what I'm going to do. Life is just gettin' started!

I'm gonna do what I can to stay alive. Life is just too interesting and fun.

I love life and all its craziness!